Everyone has their moments of self reflection, often in segregated dark rooms, sometimes in late night parties, during tests which you cant solve, driving back home, when your office desk is full of to-dos and the list goes on depending on the version of life you lead. In these sessions, we mostly think about things we long for, things we achieved, failures, things that we know we will get, things that lie on the border lines of being getable and things only a miracle would bring about. This is as clear a thought process can get. We quickly succumb to our failures, smile at the reminiscence of our triumphs, cherish the small otherwise trivial things and saddened at the recollections of our lost ones, which under normal circumstances we appear to hate. It proves that inherently we are not built to be what we become under the persona of a self imposed societal image that we don subconsciously but religiously day in day out.
So what is so peculiar in those moments that momentarily we forget to put on a personality? Stress, paranoia, excitement? While it could be linked to the inbuilt emotional surge but it tilts more towards the feeling of freeing from everything we are tied with daily. In all these cases, our mind and body are in relaxed states, we do not care about anything, therefore the acceptance, the purity in thoughts and hence the truth of our lives. I had been thinking of inducing this feeling of freedom when i had a conversation with a friend who happened to have met with a bunch of socialists. He explained to me in detail the idea off socialism [I have little or no interest in isms, to me they are just different workable systems] and the doctrine of freeing the natural needs for the people so they think clearly and having social gatherings , parties, etc etc. The crux of our discussion was when a man is free from external and internal pressures, and appears not to care about trivial and non trivial things, he is at his most rational state . While one could easily come up with the bright idea of consuming alcohol/drugs to get to a care free state of ecstasy, but that is a tad bit to far from where we want to be but it will ephemerally pass the position we want to be in. Another similar stint could be relocating to an isolated station and cut yourself from civilization which physically might disengage you from worrying about modern day life but it will bring the animal out of you. All these ideas are superficial, or probably the quest to get to freedom of thought in its true essence is unreal. So it is imperative to stop worrying about getting something which is un-get-table and stop the futile attempts to ruin an otherwise peaceful warm bed. Good night.
Big Foot 