Traditions

24/4, Friday kicks off with a hope and anticipation to take lab classes of BIT-10, i get ready for them, revise the old concepts, afterall i dont want them to wonder how i got 3A’s in C Plus Plus. I dress up in the most funky kurta i have, reach the university with a strange feeling of responsibility, and  i am glad to miss my Make up class of signals. Just as i enter the Lab, Dr. raihan is there to greet me, he says:

“i heard you have a make up class, you can come in the next Lab…meanwhile we will manage it.”

At once i am pissed off, not because i didnt get to see juniors, but i had to take my class, and listen to the shrill noise of my teacher – no offense Ma’m – . the day passed as usual, except that my partners car broke off. For the first time in my life i saw Hot wiring, Key making, and opening of a car lock. Today i also realized that how much a car is vulnerable, the mechanincs can unlock and start it in a nick of time. whew!

Walking towards home what i see is lights in the streets being placed to celebrate something. i guessed it to be a wedding. There is a school in front of my house and people use it as a good place to arrange functions, mostly matrimonial – school in a residential area ,funny!- . During my 8 yea rs stay in this neighborhood ,  this was the most extravagant preparation of the  wedding that was going to take place at night. The party had installed lights at every nook and corner of the street. The function started at around 10 at night, Loud Indian music began to obliterate the peaceful environment of this residential area, with it came fire crackers, the dhol [drum] and noise of a mob marching in towards the venue. the most astonishing thing that i saw was the act of throwing currency notes in the way of the bride and groom, few of the notes fell in my home. i couldn’t understand the meaning of the stupid act. were they trying to pay an offering to currency god or what? insane traditions have took place of those simple and decent ones in the past. i don’t know where we are heading, at one place we detest India, right in its neighborhood we dance on the same tracks that our enemy country produces. perhaps this is one of the few reasons of the chaotic mayhem that has engulfed our country and its inhabitants. Allah bless us, and our meaningless traditions.

Untitled

21/4, A very strange day today. Started of with an anticipation of taking my new audio system to show off to my friends as i had promised them earlier. Got everybody amazed by it. In fact the weather condition also normalized a little, and it rained for a while. The surroundings were very scenic at my university, with dark clouds circling the sky, and distant rain that was obvious due to horizontal gray lines in the sky. To add to the beauteous atmosphere was the cool breeze. Such a lovely day and yet i could not escape my trade mark stranded feeling.

Now with every normal person there exists a brain routine that recollects at the end of each day what the happenings of that day, and by going through them one can set a flag on that day, i.e. today this happened, that didn’t happen etcetera… but today i cant remember anything significant that took place, it seems that i didn’t live today’s day, it just passed like a bullet.

4th semester is on, not only the semester but i got a TA ship and Research responsibility in the package. Consequently there is a lot to do in a nick of time and that is what makes my life meaningful. except for the driving part, i dont like driving to university, its a dull and tiring task requiring constant attention and it takes half of my precious energies, that can be spent on some other noble work, like programming. 😛 . What i want is a house next to my university. so that everyday i don’t have to waste four hours of my day to transit chores. and that’s about it for today, i think i have made an abrupt ending to this post as there were more things to write but i cant do anything light is about to pass out and so am i juiced up. calling it a Day, an Untitled Day!

cheers!

GPA

19/4, The wheel of date is turning as i write. The weekend brought with it lots of surprises one of the prominent of them was my GPA. As usual i didn’t do anything in the two days, but hey i got a new audio system in my car. Same last minute decision about which model is better and what suits the vehicle. All in all i got a good system with a USB support.

The GPA, although its a long discussion, and its going to be the hot topic at the university tomorrow, but what else does one want if overall there is an improvement. I was both astonished and happy about the sudden improvement because being a lion in asses is nothing to be proud of, on the other hand competition gives rise to smart people with smarter brains. i got 3.49, missed 3.5 by 0.01. and with it went the scholarship. No regrets, for the money, but i wanted to be in the 3.5+ lobby, sad i couldn’t get through. My family is happy with it. Iwas expecting it to be around 3, but as i said there has been an uplift, so i reached the benchmark – well almost reached –.

Today i consumed a very strange thing. A moth. Yes, i was jogging and i was at the climax of my stamina ,so i was breathing hard, when suddenly it got into my mouth and in an attempt to get it out of my throat i was going to suffocate but could not resist the inhaling force and hence i swallowed it alive. The above incident took place so quickly that i didn’t had time to react, and i continued with my jogging, exercised and things went normal , i didn’t convert into a moth man.. 😛

all in all weekend was so so except that my two months old flu has aggravated and i cant stand more than a minute without a tissue. sneezes…

cheers!

Pakistan – Slavery in a free country –

15/4, Clocks advanced one hour, Day light Savings, hardly anything significant. The day brings many confusions among people, as always the masses are more concerned about the new and old time rather than focusing on the object of DLS. The most ridiculous concept among people of my beloved country and its gifted rulers ,that Load shedding can be countered by putting DLS into action was all out there, what a crap.

Along with the Day light savings time, came another update with the days headlines, the Sports Gala* scheduled at Sports Complex** Islamabad has been called off due to security threats on NUST students. the event is only two weeks from today, and the administration called it off straight away. Later the rumor had it,that venue had been shifted to some other place. with it went the charm of event. being a military influenced institute NUST is fully capable of providing security to couple of students, at a place which hardly anybody visits. But no, they are not ready to take responsibility for their students.

The event made me wonder that object of Pakistan was to have a land, where its inhabitants could live freely. Where is our freedom then? is this freedom that you get scared by threats of a hand full of militants? is it freedom that you kill our own people and start a chain reaction of militant manufacture? clearly not, by bending against these forces we are just proving that we are slaves in a free country. i can only hope that people of my home country stand against these minor forces ceasing our peace of mind so we can get out of this fiasco.

cheers!

 

*NUST SEECS – My university – holds a Sporting event yearly, named as Sports Gala, the venue selected for the event is Jinnah stadium and Liaqat gymnasium Islamabad.

**The Sports Complex of Islamabad lies besides the red zone of Islamabad, the area which is heavily guarded as it is very near to the political coops.

Confusion

14/4. a party, i didn’t know the exact purpose but had a a vague idea what it would be. Right from the haphazard invitation, i was feeling something not right about it. same thing happened afterwards, i was completely out of my element, not ill at ease wit my class mates but solitude was out and around me even when i was sitting in 9 people, and not just 9 ordinary people, my current class mates. although there was nothing strange about them, nor i was in a row with any of them, but i had a strange feeling about everything, i was sitting between them but i felt nobody seemed to notice or was it just my imagination, but one thing is ironic, i was the square peg in a round hole.

It isn’t that i don’t enjoy parties, i love them and specially with all the folks around. but today i was cast by a spell that repelled every other temptation that i under usual circumstances would linger for. Sometimes i feel cool about it, right at the next moment the situation is quite the contrary. It seems more like a dream in which everybody is perky and merry, but mellowness surrounds only me, and their laughing eats me up.

In an attempt to save myself from the dilemma i chose seclusion, but to no avail. instead i started feeling guilty of destroying somebody’s evening.  nothing in the world seemed to be right and in order. 

In the end i decided to get out finally. i went to a nearby Sony showroom to get some updates for the Sony Bravia deal. i don’t have any hard feelings about my mates, or i was not being jealous of anything or anyone. but one thing is for sure i can easily guess when i am not wanted in a gathering, and i just act stupid and watch people dodge me and vanish from the scene, pity that they cant tell me straight, most of the above situation was caused by this act of hypocrisy.

Hope things will be fine soon, and i will learn to talk more.

cheers!